Telling the truth about your past,is never easy especially when you can clearly see that there were so many mistakes along the way. However, when you become a mother before you are truly a woman... there will be many mistakes. I now know I am not the only one confused. The definition of a woman is so abstractly defined in the dictionary that a young girl could easily think that just because she has had her cycle and can bear children.... she is a woman. What is missing from the definition is what is most important. How do you become a mother before you are truly a woman. What most of us seek in our lives is to be a "Virtuous Woman."
A woman who understands the importance of involving God in all her decisions. A woman who knows that you are truly successful when you trust in your own decisions.
Remember reflectively I shared that there is so much more to my story. I wasn't ready to be a mother so I struggled with a moral decision. Do I have this baby and become the opposite of how I perceived myself? At the time I knew that because of my upbringing, I didn't feel my parents or anyone would accept this. Sure I remain confirmed that I was a shy awkward young woman but that was only socially. Professionally I was outspoken, and people regarded me as a leader. In college I was elected as Freshmen class president. My sophomore year I was the only sophomore selected to pledge Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority at Fayetteville State University. I went on to become President of my sorority. However again, I remain firm that my social interactions with guys was so undeveloped.
Skipping ahead again.... so here I was living in Atlanta, GA alone. My parents and family tucked away in Greensboro, NC. I was 8 weeks pregnant and seriously considering an abortion.